27 November 2012
This is what I'm feeling about tonight! Tonight is my first staged reading with my new company and couldn't be more excited! There's all these new things happening, well, they aren't new they've just been "dormant" in my life for a bit and it's such a rush to be working these muscles again. There's also an aspect of fear...but that's what we do best as actors, we embrace fear and use it to our advantage. We make it beautiful on stage.
I read all these articles and columns about how to be a better actor - to ward off the fear of acting - to overcome obstacles...bottom line, it's different for all of us. I had a conversation with a friend of mine a long time ago, in which we talked about getting there was half the battle...it was when I moved to NYC, I was there. Then things shifted and changed and I was existing there and working and acting and creating. Then things shifted again and I was in LA. Figuring it all out again...starting over at 29. I don't know what's going to happen next or where this is supposed to go but I feel excited about it again. I feel like the wheels are starting the move, the cogs are getting oiled. Like I was recently told, "you haven't 'lost' any time...time doesn't matter, you just have to do something." Baby steps.
Here's to new beginnings. Here's to ACTUALLY setting goals and accomplish-able ones. Here's to re ignition. Here's to blowing oxygen on an open flame...
Also...here's to just doing work and not being so over dramatic.
Posted by jb at 2:29 PM