24 January 2011

shy? me?

What are you shy about? Or, what situations do you find make you shy?
I've never thought of myself as shy. A family member once said I was a wall flower and it's haunted me to this day.  I don't want to be a wall flower.  Yes, I'm an observer. Yes, I analyze and listen and contemplate. Yes, I'm quiet when we first meet; I'm feeling you out, I'm learning our rhythm, I'm sorting out the dance steps...but once I've settled in, I'm not shy. Maybe I'm more reserved when it comes to things about me. I tend to be a little uncomfortable when talking about myself and what my strengths and weaknesses consist of. But, I don't think I'm shy. I'm certainly not shy about my friends talents. I could brag until I am blue in the face about the awesome things my friends do.   

One of my best friends, the one who encouraged/introduced me to this 'proj' (say it with style - it's hilarious), sent this video the other day:
This is a side track from the point of this post, but that's how this works, right, it allows your brain to want to write more. I couldn't agree more. 'Home is when I am with you.' As we get older, it becomes more and more difficult to make friends, to form bonds that really sink in. I think part of this is because we become consumed with our day-to-day: we have families, we have careers that take up a lot of time and...sometimes...it's just a lot of work. It can be exhausting. That's why this song is so appropriate. She will always and forever be one of my best friends. We, and a few friends, used to have family dinners on a regular basis. We'd cook together, eat together and clean together. It was the perfect family. My family will always be my family but as we grow and mature they can sometimes become further from you, this is where your friends step in...your friends become your family.  They are who you spend the most time with, they are who you go to in need. I don't mind it. I love my dear friends and will call them ll family forever.

What do you think? Friends vs. family - do they become one in the same as we get older? Do you think distance from family effects this?

1 comment:

  1. i think that good friends are the family that you choose.